Wednesday, April 22, 2009


I am hesitant to put this up on the side of my page yet... too scary. But I love looking at it and watching them float around in their virtual womb. I know it will change every day, and right now it says "32 Weeks, 3 Days Remaining"! I am so happy to be almost to the nine week mark. Most people get excited at 10 weeks, or when the first trimester is over, but our losses were always before 9 weeks and I think I will feel a small bit of security when we make it past there. (Well, we found out about one at 10, but baby had stopped growing weeks before).

I woke up today anxious, and told my husband I didn't feel very pregnant. Then I took a shower and could not see my feet for the GIANT boobs, and felt a little better. Then I spent the rest of the day feeling hungry and then super nauseated, sure I was going to throw up at the grocery store when I walked by the soups in the deli and the cleaning supply aisle. Then I slept for 2 hours this afternoon, woke up and made popcorn which smells awful and now am nauseous again; all the windows are open, trying to get the smell out. So I guess I do feel pregnant after all, and it is so very comforting. Both of my later miscarriages were "missed miscarriages" which means that no real bleeding or cramping started on it's own, and we found out on ultrasound, shocked. When I do "feel" more pregnant, with more symptoms, I am extremely grateful because I did notice a decrease or lack of symptoms with the losses.

We have another week until our ultrasound, and I am cautiously hopeful and yet so scared. This will be when we found out our daughter's heart had stopped, so it will be a big milestone to pass hopefully.

My new favorite thing: maternity belly bands! I am wearing mine daily now, and I know I am not even eight weeks yet, but SERIOUS belly. I cannot zip the jeans, and this little band of elastic is my new best friend. All my friends are saying that I won't be able to hide it much longer- and honestly, they are just being kind. It is obvious now, and I know people know, I just can't bear to tell a lot of people (besides the world wide webs). I think I will feel more ready to share (since my abs are not holding the uterus in) after we see them, hopefully all healthy and growing next week.


  1. Love the baby countdown!! glad to see you are feeling "sick";) ((HUGS))

  2. Woooohooo! Hope the U/S shows you everything you want to see!

  3. Yay to symptoms. Yay to countdown. I hope the time till your ultrasound passes quickly. I'm just a little ahead of you. I'll be following along.

  4. C'mon, 9 weeks! I'm glad you're celebrating--every day from here on out is cause for feeling better (well, maybe not physically ;) and more confident.

  5. Hooray for symptoms. I'm glad to know that I'm not the only one shocking the west coast with her giant boobs. ;)

    I love looking at your little floaty babes! Glad you put them up there.

  6. Love the new twin ticker!
    I hate when the symptoms come & go, but yours seem SOLID!
    I am also super bloated and thinking about getting a Bella Band this weekend...
    Wishing you nothing but good wishes!

  7. it's so cool that you made friends with maternity belly bands - I wish I had, but by the time I found out about them, I was already well adjusted into my perfect petite jeans with the preggo band. I remember going shopping on a trip to Oregon (no tax ;) ) early in the pregnancy for some preggo tops and my belly was barely showing, I got some tops that I could not imagine myself ever growing into... well, now, in my 3rd trimester, they're perfecto! :)
    We're lucky we have all these specialized mat clothes available, those things were not in existance for our moms when they had us in the bellies :)

  8. lovely to read about your sickness, your belly and your cautious hope.