Here we are, 25 weeks and 2 days! 18 days until the 28 week mark! Thanks to everyone for the kind comments and encouragement after my meltdown yesterday. I wish I could say it was a good day, but I cried a good part of the day and felt more and more like I needed to have a better talk with Dr. P. My husband and I talked about the options and he came to lay in my bed with me last night to talk (after working all day and taking care of our daughter).
What I realized while talking to him, my mom and friends is that I want more than anything for these boys to be safe and sound and sound and born at a healthy, 30+ week gestation, and I also want to be with my family. I felt like I had to choose between these two things yesterday, and obviously am being as cautious as can be with the boys. My husband and I both decided I'd have to stay put unless Dr. P suggested that there was no need for it at this point.
I was so excited to talk to her this morning, but she ended up doing rounds late this afternoon instead. When she came in I was ready to communicate clearly with her, and get her opinion. It went something like this:
Me: Okay, I really want to be cautious and make sure they stay in as long as I can, but am I any safer here?
Dr. P: Not right now. Your contractions have been SO few the last couple days, and your cervix is stable. In fact (takes me off toco monitor) you don't need to be monitored anymore unless you feel a lot of contractions.
Me: So is it reasonable to measure my cervix again on Friday and do an fFN and if all looks the same I can go on strict bed rest at home?
Dr. P: Yes. If it is the same, and the fFN is negative, I will discharge you. You will have to be on more strict rest- no trips up and down the stairs, no walking around. Having you here is being extra cautious, which is fine, but it is not really necessary right now. I will check your cervix twice/week and if it shortens at all, you'll be readmitted.
Me: (Trying to be as explicit as I can) If all is okay on Friday and I head home, I am not in anymore danger of delivering early if I follow the rules and take my meds?
Dr. P: (Looking at me like I am kind of slow) That is right. I will schedule your U/S and fFN for Friday. We'll talk then. You should get to have your baby shower at home now!
Me: (Sniff, sniff.) THANK YOU! We should talk like this more often! (Not really, but that is what I was thinking.)
Who has a big grin on their face? ME! It was awesome to be reassured by her that I was not risking anyone's life by sleeping in a different bed. I will be taking the same meds and resting as much. I asked about home monitoring for contractions and she said since I've demonstrated that I know when I am having them, it is better to just call and be seen.
I feel so much better today! Now I know that if I have to stay (due to more contracting or a shorter cervix on Friday) that it will be necessary and if all is the same, I can rest at home, hopefully preserving a shred of my sanity.
The boys and I at 25 weeks. They have grown!
The physical therapist just came in and talked with me about the wonderful affects of losing muscle mass while bed resting and how to do some simple exercises. She also told me Kegel exercises can help strengthen the cervix and prevent shortening! True or not, I will be doing mine religiously now.